Rest

The block is there I'm what 32 now and just seeing it?? I can't even write the words it was hard enough typing it once?! I can't sleep I can't take a pill because I have to get up in a few hours with Judah I don't want to risk him not having someone ā

Do your best

To forget about me Dad.. I don't know why I was a glint in your eye to begin with with. I have no conceivable reason to exist anymore.. I can raise my son and off myself and be done with it.. He's the only reason I want to stay here. Its not that my life is bad it's that I'm empty, I don't give anything I'm just here... Breathing, I'll awake I'm a few hours go to work and drive home and sleep I'll make no difference in anyone's life.. I contribute a schedule for the employees but seriously and literally a program can do that.. I seem to only cause heartache to my amazing wife.. I'm like a stuffed animal that shows up once in awhile to fuck everything up long enough for you to know I was here.. I have no idea what I'm doing here.