So many Goals So little talent.

There are days. Like today when every dream, idea or inspired moment i have ever had feels like absolute bollocks. There are plenty that are ridiculous but I think i have had some good one's over the years. The problem it seems is that anything that I have done sucessfully has been through a construct an organization and now without that it all seems like shit. TV is punishment. Punishment for religating my self to the sidelines of life for the sole reason that i don't seem to have what it takes. Every job i get i top out and then passed up for growth every single fucking time. Instead of a college degree which could have possibly helped right now I went to a non accredited bible school. Which impresses absolutly no one.. How do i know this? Well no one has actually said it so.. Proof enough.. Mental illness? that's ridiculous i'm too practical for mental illness.. There are some thing i'm good at or possible good traits.
-I'm Nice
-I shower and am usually clean
-I enjoy and am good at sex

I don't think I can forgive myself for moving here.