I keep having this thought churn in me. What do I want when I call on God, especially when it comes to being a part of the body of Christ, i can’t help but think of us as a whole when i think of myself, I think what does God want and what do i want. Ive seen God really move in allot of services, my time at CFNI, Parchman State penintentary, Morning star (trinity), Anacortes First Assembly, Family Prayer Center Rehab, various other meetings and now LIFE! in Missouri.. It seems at the majority of these places at least for a time everyone wanted the same thing. Jesus. To come. To invade our lives, blow the limitations off our thinking, crush unbelief, free us from our bondages. Some of these were long lasting like CFNI, I swear we, meaning the group that was there were under a special anointing or something because it was explosion in almost every meeting. At the family prayer center I have never learned more about God directly from God then any other time in my life it was a truly divine separated time for me, God said you’ve lived a worthy life, but now your mine, just mine. Ive never had that experience before God separating the wheat from the chaff like that, showing me things that for 29 years of my short life I had been blind to, things about me, my family, my ancestry and my future. Now here I am churning because God is telling me this really simple thing over and over again "what do you think it takes for me to come?" There are so many opinions of what that entails, I know Some folks of would say "discipleship, God didn’t ask for believers, but for disciples" but I know where that leads. Chains. Others would say fasting and prayer! "You have to fast to really lose the bonds and that brings change!" I also know where that leads. Chains. Of course none of these things as well as other great practices are evil, just like a knife isn’t evil just because you stab someone with it. As everything in our life it’s the heart that determines the out come. I used to say to people back in my fundamentalist days "the heart is deceitfully wicked above all things who can know it!" Which of course is a reference out of Jeremiah, I loved to say that! it made me feel all righteous and holy, plus I put people in their place and made them feel bad about themselves, which is exactly what I wanted because that’s how i felt. Wicked, unworthy of God’s presence taking residence on the inside of me, so why should i let someone else get away with being happy with themselves when I wasn’t. I know it terrible but that’s who I was and in some area’s still am, the difference between then and now is that I recognize it doesn’t matter, I can’t make myself better EVER! What can I do though? This is the key (to me) I want God to come. No matter what, more than anything beyond anyone’s opinion of what it takes I could give a rat’s fat crack.
I’m telling you there’s no other way. God goes where he’s invited, in the way that he shows YOU he wants you to invite his presence, don’t ask your (disciple r) counselor, pastor, friend or wife. Ask God what he wants you to do, you seek him with all your heart and you will get your answer, it might not be what your looking for but I promise when he shows his glory you won’t care. Having God speak directly to you with out someone laying hands on you, having him point directly to what he wants to go in your life and then tells you to cast it out, to deal with it and you do, then it leaves and never comes back! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!! That actually happens!?? Yes my friend what we have inside of us is the same power Jesus had as he walked this red soil. There are things I cannot speak of at this time (not because im being secretive) but because I don’t have the full picture yet, things that are coming.. I know for a fact to the region I’m in now but maybe the US that are going to change the landscape, America will not be the same, this isn’t hype guys I speak more solemnly then I ever have in my life, Alanna and I are going to be a part of it just a voice among a million others.. These are really exciting times, I speak of lasting change my friends, things this world has never seen. I want it to happen all over this nation (As I know That Alanna and I are called to America) I also know that it won’t. There are quite a few people that like thing just the way that they are and they don’t want God to come in power, power puts us in our place. They see this power as encroachment on there plans. Plans to build effaces to their own accomplishment, courts of praise for there own efforts and outreach for fame. Wanting this Isn’t about selling all you have and moving into a cave to fast nonstop and poop in a bucket. It means Inviting what ever God has for us. It sounds simple because it is simple. Watch out for the pharisee that want to entrap you in the way that they do things. God is wild, dangerous, untameable and best of all good. He won’t be told what to do. He’ll just keep on moving. Come, Please Come.
What do we want.
Love and Freedom
